Sleeeeepy but worth it

Folks, we are old.  Well older than we were 10 years ago 😉  So staying out past 9:30 pm is kinda something we don’t do but that concert kept us out until 11:30 and not home until midnightish. Then I was up this morning by 5:30 to help mom with a yard sale. I just woke up from a couple hour nap on the couch with our little “boogie bear” (aka Brogan the Boston Terrier).

That was such a great concert. Jen Ledger is the drummer for Skillet, and she started a little band simply called Ledger. So her band opened for For Kings and Country. Then after For Kings and Country, Skillet did their thing. Amazing..loved it. I’m tired and think I still hear the music ha!

We were so so so close to the stage. I mean CLOSE. I’ll add some photos from my phone here in a bit if I can remember. So, it was well worth the fatigue. But I’m going to hop in the shower and crash for tonight. Everyone have an excellent weekend and God bless you!

Beyond Stoked!

So, today I received a message on Facebook from a friend of ours whom we used to attend church with.  The fella said “Hey” and I replied “Hey how are you all?” He said “fine and he has something for us.” I was like “oh yeah? ” Him “Yeah, tickets to go see Skillet tomorrow night.”

 

Me “Oh my goodness for real!? Ya’ll aren’t going? Whaaaa! How much? We will pay?”  He told me free and I just couldn’t believe someone would be this kind..well yes I can because God is good and they are Christians and love the Lord. But I just was so overwhelmed with joy..still am!

 

So we get to go see Skillet along with For Kings and Country and I think one more band as well. If you don’t already know..Skillet is a huge Christian Rock band and so are For Kings and Country. I’m still like giddy! Thank you Lord!!!

My bariatric vitamin is making me sick :/

I’ve had the same bari vitamin since a couple of weeks post op (how long they told me to wait).  It has been absolutely great and my labs always come back good BUT within the past couple of months it is making me absolutely nauseous and I dread chewing it up.

 

It’s a one a day so very convenient as opposed to the other ones on the market. I just recently noticed they added iron to them so maybe that’s the issue..or maybe it’s the wellbutrin that  I’m on causing it to taste odd.

 

Whatever the case I do not like taking it but it is very important to take them. So I think next time I’ll get the capsules even though I have a hard time swallowing them. Yuck. You have to take the good with the bad.

 

Grandma has been gone 2 months and 2 days. Its getting easier every day and I’m thankful to God for that. Now instead of wishing she was still here I thank God for taking her home. She would still be miserable in her old broken body. I miss her and always will but some day I will see her again.

 

I used to wonder if we will know each other in Heaven. Lets look at 1 Corinthians 13:12 KJV- “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.”  

I think that is an indication that we will be known in Heaven as we are known on earth to our loved ones. I am not certain of course BUT I do know that either way what a day it will be to see our Lord face to face! My prayer is that everyone seeks salvation so that they can have that privilege.

I worry about those who are lost and it causes a lot of sadness but we all have freewill. Anyway, I hope everyone is having a wonderful day. It looks like springtime is trying to happen. I actually had a hummingbird fly up to me yesterday morning to say hello 🙂

Until my next blog entry..God bless whomever reads this and take care!

No fashion sense

So..at 2 years post op I have absolutely NO sense of fashion..but I didn’t before either. I really have no clue what goes with what..color coordinating and shoes..what kinda shoes do I wear! So..with that being said I need some help in that department. I’ve thought about stitch fix, gwynnie bee, etc but can NOT afford it. So I guess if anyone can throw me a bit of advice I will take it.

I really don’t like short sleeves for Church..and that’s the only place I dress up. Dresses would have to be ankle length because that’s what I feel most comfortable in. And shoes..maybe a little bit of a heel but not too much of one? I don’t know. Oh and on the sleeves does anyone know if they still make 3/4″ sleeves?

Klonopin you suck

Why must I always do stupid stuff? Oh I’m human okay. Anyway, got back on klonopin after grandma passed away. This time I was upped to a whole milligram daily as opposed to the half mg I’d been on prior. I shouldn’t have agreed to take it. Cause now I’m tapering again because I told her I want off of it. I don’t like benzos. I don’t like the brain fog or the good feeling I get cause I’m terrified of becoming addicted. So yeah, coming off of them…even with the taper is brutal.

I really didn’t put two and two together but my symptoms all point to withdrawal. Last night didn’t sleep a wink. Today have upset tummy and all that. But ya know what? Gods got me. He will help me over this slump. Eventually I plan on trying to come off of Wellbutrin too. I can do it because I have Him in my life. Praise you Lord for saving me. How did I do anything before??

On another note…weather is warming up. I’ll be walking again soon. I want to be to 150 this summer. I’m gonna get my butt in gear and work hard. Hubby is doing low carb. Well mostly. He has been quitting smoking with patches so he has been eating hard candy to help him. It’s hard. I’ve been there. But I’m super proud of him. I think once our finances get better (in the next few weeks they should) I’ll start meal prepping for both of us.

Well ramblings are over. If this post made no sense i do apologize. Have an excellent evening everyone and God bless you!

A month and a half

It’s hard to believe grandma has been gone a month and a half already.  Its somewhat easier but the pain and void is still there. The night we buried her..or maybe the night after, I’m unsure as it’s kind of a blur, I cried myself to sleep.  I don’t think I’ve cried so long or so hard in a very long time.  I tried to keep myself from shaking the bed because I didn’t want to wake my husband up.  But the crying I guess was therapeutic in some way.

God knows that we didn’t want her to go but He also knew the best thing and that was to take her home.  She was ready.  She was tired.  She wanted to see my grandpa she said.  So..the month and a half that has passed has been difficult to say the least.  My emotions are all over.  I’ve not been eating the best or taking care of myself with rest as good as I should but I’m trying.

My mental health is important but it’s also something I tend to just keep hidden.  I have PCOS and that escalates my depression apparently.  I also have pretty regular mood swings.  I just wish I could snap my fingers and “fix” myself.  But I think that the anxiety and depression and other struggles I’ve had prior to becoming a Christian was something God allowed me to go through for a reason.

Here is why I say that….. Romans 8:28 CSB “We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God, who are called according to His purpose”.  So perhaps I’ll be able to help others who struggle with the things I have struggled with.  In any way I can help someone I will.

Currently waiting on my husband to get home from work.  He’s struggling with smoking.  He’s trying really hard to quit but I know it’s hard.  I tried many times and finally did 2 years ago prior to having the VSG surgery.  It’s a have to thing when you have the weight loss surgery.  You don’t wanna get an ulcer at all but especially in a tiny tummy.

So I feel his pain and I pray for God to keep him focused on the quit and on the health that he will regain from not smoking.  Money will be saved as well.  So anyone who sees this please keep him lifted in prayer too.  I just wanted to do a quick update to anyone who may read this.  I need followers really and I need to post more often.  I will..it’s a good way to get things off my chest.

God bless whomever may be reading this.  Jesus loves you and so do I.